Well, the summer is very...relaxing. I've gone swimming a few times so far and drawn lots of pictures. I'm currently working on a new desktop for myself. It's taking me quite a while. I did it first by hand and then I'm outlining and colouring on the computer. I'm happy with it so far, but it's a huge image and it's going to take a long long long time to complete. My friend is really pushing me to finish it after they learned they were on it.

Balancing 'Dracula' and 'Interview With The Vampire' is not something I'd recommend. Both good books, the second more interesting than the first, but it's hard to read two things at once. I really like vampires. They are awesome.

I'm getting into a wide range of music, all contributing to emotions. Mika is now my happy music. I bought his CD and talked to this incredibly helpful guy at FutureShop. That was fun.

Driving is not as hard as it looks, but is definitely nerve-wracking. I drove 80km/hr. It was the weirdest experience ever. I didn't think I could do it without crashing or going under the speed limit (by something like 30 km...)

I need to think of more things to do. It's hard when it's overcast and there's always chances of rain. Why can't it be sunny and not humid?

Well, after six months, I finally got my earring changed. I bought this cool looking one that looks kinda like barbed wire to put in instead. I love it so much! And my mum bought me a new belt buckle! It's shaped like a wicked cool dragon. We bought it from the piercing place. My mum says we're 'regulars' there now because we've been twice. I think twice is more than she would have ever thought she'd go into one of those places in her life. I don't really care that we look awkward walking in, it's a cool place.
And the awesome(ly HOT) guy who pierced my ear was there. Well...I knew he would be because he's the place's only piercer, but still! I like seeing him =P His piercings are soooooo cool. But I wouldn't ever get them done. His ears are gauged bigger than flipping oreo cookies! lol. My mum's expression when she first saw him was HILARIOUS!!! I still laugh when I think about it.

Movie night tonight! Whoop! I'm having two of my girl friends over tonight (friends who are girls...I hate when people think the other way when I say that). We're watching movies and playing karaoke and GH and Rock Band and stuff. It should be awesome. I'm so excited.

Exams this week....Nervousness hasn't taken over yet, but I'm sure it will by Monday morning. I wish I didn't have 3 exams. Too many before summer =(

I got no sleep last night. My brother had a bunch of his friends over for an after party (after his prom). They made a lot of noise. I tried to fall asleep with my headphones plugged into my stereo and listening to Panic, but it didn't work. Maybe I'll sleep in extra long tomorrow.

Well, that's my day/night.

It feels like the end of school already. It's hot outside, everyone has started dressing in summer clothes, I'm wearing my sunglasses, and my teachers have started cramming and acting incredibly boring. I just feel like collapsing in class. Look, I know the Cold War is important, but when you can see the hot weather right outside the window, it's just really really really hard to pay attention.

The list of what me and my sister plan on doing this summer (Project 'Occupy the kid'):
-biking in the woods
-water gun fights
-biking to the chip stand for lunch
-painting plaster molds
-inviting her friend over
-karaoke
-Guitar Hero, Rock Band (aka video games)
-teaching her still life drawing (maybe outside)
-phoning up my aunt and seeing if we can go swimming in her pool
-watching movies

That's all I've got so far. Let me know if you have any more ideas...XD

I watched one of the weirdest movies with my brother last night! So so so strange! And it's supposedly the 3rd best movie of all time. Weird. It was made in 1969 or something, and the graphics are amazing for that time, but it's lacking a thorough plot XP What do you know- a Stanley Kubrick film.
2001: A Space Odyssey.
I haven't decided whether I'd recommend it or not. I guess it's worth a watch.

I got my hair cut! That was exciting. It's so much shorter now. My sister didn't even recognize me at the door, I look that different. I wonder what my friends will say tomorrow...
Something tells me my history teacher wont know who I am.

Current favourite song: 'Fast Car' by Tracy Chapman. I don't really know why. It's a sad song, but a good one.

Oh, my friends saw Fight Club. That was good. 2 out of 3 liked it a lot. The other just thought it was kinda creepy. I guess he's right in a way. Still an awesome movie, though. Brad Pitt is so kick ass.

I don't really know what to say. I'm sort of bored and don't have much to do, but there's not much to say today.
It's sunny. Umm....I'm procrastinating on my homework....Um....

So, here's how it's going, which isn't bad/isn't great- it's alright. Everything is alright...'cause I hate the ocean, theme parks and airplanes, talking with strangers waiting in line...Sorry, I just had to do that. It's one of my favourite Motion City Soundtrack songs right now. I've been going through my music lately, listening to stuff over and over that I haven't heard for a while. It's interesting to see how much my tastes have broadened and yet are still the same.

Fight Club is a great movie. Explains the userpic. 'Nuff said.

13 Days is not a great movie. Not even really good. It's hard to watch history films when they're exceptionally boring and you know the ending. It almost ruins it...NO they do not start nuclear warfare! If they did, we wouldn't be watching the stupid movie! Boooooorrrrrriiiiiiiing! And he wouldn't let us watch Dr. Strangelove because he thought we wouldn't understand it. Sheesh.

I'm still reading 1984, which is awesome. I want to watch that film after I'm done. The whole situation in the story is creepy...but it's a good read.
Art class is now officially the best. We're making 3-D sculptures of things from 2-D paintings. I chose this weird one called "The Red Model". So I'm making plaster casts of my feet and turning them into boots. My friend Kim is completely weirded out by them, but my art teacher loves the idea. Should be interesting.

Movie marathon this weekend! Woo hoo! My brother is picking up and bunch and we're going to watch them. Everything from Little Nemo to Nemesis to 2001 A Space Odyssey. That's something to look forward to.

Only one more day of school until I can sleep in. XD

Alright, well, my friends want to go downtown tomorrow and I dunno about it. I mean, I just spent a lot of money to go to the panic concert and get a shirt and all, and now they want to drag me down town to 'hang out'.

'Hang out' is code for 'let's go spend money to have a good time'. I really don't like that. I don't like spending my money unless it's something I really really want. I don't like spending money at all. And I don't like spending money I don't have. I had to borrow some from my dad. I know it'll be taken from my allowance, but I just don't want to spend it. I'm saving up and I've made some big purchases recently. I went to two concerts in the past 3 months, pitched in to buy Rock band, bought some shirts from the panic concert, paid for a gift card for my friend's birthday. I just don't want to spend more. Why can't my friends hang out around our own neighbourhood? This is ridiculous. But I want to hang out with them, and they're all going...I don't want to be the anti-social one just because I care more about my expenses than the rest of them.

The panic concert was amazing. Worth every penny to get there and for the shirts. That's the thing- it was the best time of my life and I know those memories are worth more than money. I'm glad I've got them. I'm glad I got to spend that time with my mum.
The pictures, just in case you haven't seen them.
Diva much?
http://img397.imageshack.us/img397/7509/brendonxc4.jpg
Jon roadie pose:
http://img383.imageshack.us/img383/7163/jonlx6.jpg
Spencer wouldn't pose for anybody (all I've got are pics of his side or beautiful backside XP)
http://img153.imageshack.us/img153/2374/spencermk3.jpg
RYAN ROSS!!!! [best pic we got of him]
http://img153.imageshack.us/img153/5793/ryanxy2.jpg
Ryan waving (hand partially covering face =P)
http://img155.imageshack.us/img155/3615/ryan2pb1.jpg

Anyway, sorry if I'm being a downer. I'm incredibly tired and it's raining outside. The dish washer will probably go on at 4 am and I'm not exactly looking forward to it.

On the bright side...I wrote a poem that I like. Maybe I'll post it next time.

I finished that book and it was absolutely amazing. I can't wait to read the second one!

Things are going really great. I'm having a wonderful week and school's going a lot better than I thought it would turn out. Not too much longer of it until break anyway.

I've started listening to Cobra Starship and am in love with the video where they throw pies. I find it hilarious.

Sorry for the short post. I don't have much time. Need to write more of my ballad.

There is a sticky note on the back of my door tallying off the days until the Panic concert. I am soooo excited. I want to watch the deluxe edition DVD again, but I'm supposed to be doing homework (=P). I still haven't opened the puzzle or tried the vinyl yet. The puzzle just looks too perfect and I haven't gone over to my friend's house to use her record player. I've looked through the special album cover a million times now though.

I've started reading an AWESOMELY HILARIOUS book that my friend Liz suggested. It's great. Soooo funny. It's this modern sci-fi fantasy, Shadowhunter book, "City of Bones" by Cassandra Clare. Take a read- you wont be disappointed.

Well, I've done something I'd never thought I'd do...I've started to take on 2 fan fics at once. One SP one and another  Panic one. I hope this doesn't end in disaster. I like them both too much for that.

Finally, I've come up with a story for my ballad. So sitting through 3 1/2 hours of 'Downfall' the directors cut payed off. Whoop de doo. That was a lot of German I sat through. Definitely a good movie, it was just too long for me. So now I'm writing about the last battle at Berlin from the German soldiers' perspective. Should be cool. [I'm putting it to the tune of 'Pas De Cheval', so, well, it's gotta be awesome, yeah?]

It was sunny today, I should have brought my aviators after all. Better luck tomorrow then.

And before I go: a word for the random.

The Tally Chief was dressed in a top hat and skinny jeans
Leaning on a spray painted brick wall
Calling to followers for what they do best
Guessing moods and feelings and patterns
In people's faces
Placing them in standard
Categories
Stories from which you will never hear from again
Blank pages full of screams
Tearing your eyes from the barrel of a neon gun
Ready. Aim. Fire.

This is a 'poem' (...rant...) that I wrote in December. I really like the wording with it. Words flow into each other and such. I think I wrote it late at night (no surprise there).
rulers matching measurements,
never the right size
or so they say
uneven lines and syllables
winning the prize
for utter shrinking tolerance
and that does not go for teaching
sentiments for the semi sentimental
and the ruler of the castle is only
30 centimeters long
really, may i ask?
or so the wise men march
to the beat of a
harmonica
and a baby screams
from far away
i am not able to imagine
but sheep are soft and cows are black and white
and horns are not so sharp as they appear
searing
ministries and black markets
cows behind the stalls
stalling for time
no. you may not ask
the wise men are not so wise
and the harmonica ceases
the scream ceases to be
and we are not so far away as we imagine
hearing
songs from broken headphones
statics in the attack
and the sizes still aren't the same
even though i insist
but the ruler could care less
and i could care more
that would be the end
forever
down the valley road
not meant to be, but is of its own accord
and the accordion keys glisten
as we were meant to listen
not to bells, or words, or bleating
but to life
with the volume on mute
my finger presses play
and the story begins again and again
relive our childhood once more
nothing chances
nothing stays the same
and in between
the walls are creeping closer

Wouldn't let me post 8- arrghhh. Too large again. So ignore the second half of the cut for 7. Eight is not with it- it is here.

Wont let me post it all at once. Too large. Here is the rest.

Call me paranoid, I don't really care. But if you had a comp. with hard drives as old as mine, you'd be just as worried. It could crap out on me any day, whether it be this week, today, or in 6 months. So, not wanting to lose this fan fiction, I'm going to post all I have up until now, even the chapter I have yet to finish completely. If you want to read it, go ahead. It is slashy, if that suits you. Enjoy or ignore.

Panic tickets have finally come in the mail
and I think I'm the happiest person on earth.
Memories last longer than photographs, but can't stand on empty shelves.
Dust cluttered thoughts of when and where,
No longer just momentum.
Fast, beating, flashes, breathing.
Forward in time. And back.
Here and now.
Thinking of soon to bes.
Daydreams of what is to come.

It's going to rain today. The sky is all dark. Though, at least I wont have to walk home in the rain. I feel so happy thinking of tonight and seeing my best friend. We don't get to see each other as often, but I still consider her such. We're going to a musical.
It's weird. We're both seeing each other's favourite concerts. But they are also our own favourites. Me to Panic, her to Simple Plan. Strange how it goes. I think we'll pick t-shirts up for each other.

I wanted to wear my sunglasses, but it's just not the right time- and temperature.

I can't help but smile when I hear 'That Green Gentleman'. Things have changed for me.

Just saw the music video for 'That Green Gentleman' and I must say that it is amazing. They've definitely chosen a wonderful director. The themes and concepts are spectacular and shown in a very artistic way. I suggest people watch it. I'm glad I did.

Feathers fluttering in space and time like a rain scene in slow motion
Oceans of birds and pillow stuffings
Fluffy and grey
Make this day extraordinary
Cordially, this invitation may bring me to a halt
Altering what was said earlier and transferring you into a sea of madness
Nestling in a warm bed
Soft sighs, lullabies, and farewells
Greet you in the darkness
And the walls sway goodnight.

I got interviewed by a loony today. I don't think I've ever met someone so flamboyant and hyperactive. It was near scary.

Tonight will be wonderful. I can feel it.

Set displays,
I'm in a maze
Of invisible walls.

I think I did just about everything wrong for my first shot posting my SP fic here, but I wasn't sure how it worked. I think I might have it down now. If you're interested, take a read. slashypunkboys community.

I should do some guitar. I still need to write some lyrics for a ballad, but a story still hasn't caught up with me yet. I've got some great ideas for presentation and art and just about everything that doesn't have to do with words.
I think I might be a little paranoid about people judging it.

Maybe I'll edit some slam poetry instead.

Peace out.

Title: Just Living Proof That The Camera Is Lying
Author: RoleLedoM
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Pierre Bouvier and Chuck Comeau of Simple Plan.
POV: 1st, Pierre's
Summary: He nodded with what I hoped was understanding. ‘God, his eyes are beautiful’ was all I could think. But they looked better when he was happy, and something told me he wasn’t the smiling guy he was a few minutes ago.
Disclaimer: This is not real, and did not happen.
Author's Notes: My first Simple Plan fic. The title was taken from the song 'Fences' by Paramore because I thought it accurately reflected my piece.

Good day all, and good evening,
This is my first post on here, and I'm just checking up to see that everything is working alright. Good? Perfect. Thanks.
Now to figure out how everything else works...

Nice to be here. It's be a great day, and now I should get caught up on some writing. Ever since my favourite Simple Plan forum has closed, I've kinda been at a loss to put my fictions.

I guess this is my own personal welcome to LJ.